Awake
image credit No one ever expects a Spanish Inquisition. Just like no one ever expects all the other stuff that a deep dive into adoptee trauma will stir up. Where to begin. . . gif credit Vocab Some of the words I learned way back in 2018 : trauma attachment abandonment rejection grief evolved into something more. Awakening from a lifetime of fog was, for lack of a better description, an eye-opening experience. I learned that every single major decision in my life's been influenced by this early trauma. Why teach? It's so stable! Teachers are needed everywhere ! You can teach and always have a job! No upsetting changes necessary here! It's a sure thing! Yussss - let's gooooo! . . . that give me a sense of commitment and stability because that's the only way I feel safe in my surroundings! This attitude, being predisposed toward longevity, this yearning for consistency, was pragmatic. At least, that's what I always thought. Security. Protection. Thes...
